Missing you ~~~

Darling ... i miss you very much...

Ever since you moved to the new house we have rarely talked to each other...

Moreover we are now 3 hours different in time zone !! Sob Sob.... sooooo hard to communicate...

:( feel like hugging and kissing you now ...

Goodnight darling... I love you .. today way too tired already.. hopefully you are resting well now on the other continent.. now it should be 12.13 am there already..

I love you , Snow White.... :-*

Malaysian Economy ..... Gambateh !

Malaysia's economy this few weeks have been sluggish and in-consistent... With the market rebounded 24 points yesterday , i certainly hoped things will improve.. particularly in the electronics sector, which will directly affect my family's household income...

I googled Panasonic's outlook recently and it seems like in Japan, things are not so optimistic...Damn it..

Mom told me their company's sales for electronic motors used in cars dropped 30% .. WTF ~

Worse thing is their production is limited due to the low demand... OH bloody shit... Hopefully things will improve..

And to my friends, I would suggest now that all of you stock up all your money in fixed deposit account with a mature period of 3 months .. doing so will help you improve your financial position as well as giving your cash some liquidity ..

And when you have time , go open up an account with PTPTN .. a bank account i mean .. cause taking study loan from PTPTN requires such an account.

Also , all the best to my friends taking STPM as well as me... GAMBATEH !!

Hectic life...

Life's been non-life recently... I've not talked to my dear for 2 days even though we are not at cold war !! WTH ?! Even myself also cannot believe that... I'm used to be a darling-sticky type... BUT then.. for the sake of that EXAM ... uuuuggghhh ... lousy life comes to me...

And i've been missing a good cup of coffee too... the old coffee press my dear gave me was broken 2 weeks ago.. I bought a new one from Starbucks... BUT .. It simply lacks the ooommpphhh !! Not to mention .. It lacks vitamin L,O,V,E too... :P

Anyway .. I've been angry with the way i deal with my maths.. The mathematical workings are not organised... Not "good" enough to avoid mistakes.. Besides.. I've been timing myself recently to force myself finish a full set of Paper 1 Maths in 1 hour 45 minutes.. and check through it for 1 hour 15 minutes... it seems to work.. though there's a very good technique before beginning to deal with the maths : Neslo Ice !

YES !! A cup of Neslo Ice with 5 teaspoons of Milo powder and 1 teaspoon of Nescafe seems to give me the burst to deal with maths !!

I LOVE NESLO !!!!!!

Buddha lives in everyone...

Recently perhaps due to fear of exam.. I've turned to religion to seek some peace...

Buddha is right about meditation .. Sometimes , we really need to "pause" and have a look at ourselves...

Let ourselves understand what a lousy being we are ... Let ourselves understand that we are imperfect.. thought we can be perfect... and let ourselves find a cure to the imperfection..

Realizing my problems today... I felt enlightened... I'm literally "awake" .. "Awake" from my dream...

I've started to feel the reality now.. the real world..

And i strongly believe .. I'm strong enough to face it.

After STPM .. I have plan to go to the temple and be a monk for maybe 2 weeks or 3 weeks...

The spiritual "battery" needs to be recharged... I've ran out of battery power... I'll talk and plan with Mr. Entau and contact 开扬法师 。。。 honestly .. i missed him..

Hopefully he's not going to US or Taiwan ..you know... He's quite a "globalised" monk...

Hopefully Buddha sees my need and 子逸 will get a period of peace while 觉逸沙弥 will walk this Earth seeking peace and wisdom for 2 weeks...

Today so lame...

So damn "sui" today ...

Morning feel like don't want to kill animal .. Wanna eat vege .. walk to the shop .. sien nia .. Orang Raya tapi orang tak mahu jadi kaya .. Dun wanna open shop .. ZZZzzz...

Suak lor.. i wished not to kill animal but no choice lor.. hehe ... ( just a lame excuse to eat meat)

Then .. Afternoon .. feel like eating Tau Hu Hua ..

Cycled to the aunty's lorry there ..

Aunty says :" Ah Boy ar....完了咯 ！！ "

ZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzz......

My bean curd .... It's one of the few object which can help me recall my Snow White's skin texture .. HNG !!! So tulan ~~

At night .. Missing darling very very very much .. persuaded mom to take me to in-law's place for dinner ..

Drive drive drive ... sob sob ... today public holiday off.... sob sob sob ..

Go eat steam "tuo pan" ... Sigh ... if you compare the texture of "tuo pan" and Tau Hu Hua... kanasai .. like old lady and young lady nia...

Whatever it is... here i am sipping green tea... while waiting for my dear to online .. :)

I'm still happy that i managed to studied quite a lot today .. :) .

As for all the good food i missed today ... "I'll be back ... !!"

Stress Stress Stress....

Ok , i admit it ..... i have a tendency to release tension through words...

Flipping through my Biology .. i've managed to covered 3 major topics today ...

BUT still not enough....

Feel like injecting myself with Gonadotrophine Realising Hormone then enjoy a surge in my FH and LSH ... and then go through a mentrual bleeding...

Damn it... then i realise i have no Ovary ! No follicle cells to secrete oestrogen !! NO corpus leteum to secrete progesterone !!

WTH !!

Then ! No menstrual cycle lar , of course , brather ~~

I don't know what am i talking about...

Cos my mind has been set to continue with "anterior pituitary gland will secrete FSH and LH" after the phrase "Hypotalamus secretes GnRH....."

Snow White ar....

Save me ar....